Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Dec 31, 2013...Just one more day….

Just one more day…

I have just one…more…day.

One more day that I can say, "Last year I watched Noah play baseball."

Not in a dream.

One more day I can say, "Last year I sat down with Haleigh Raye and Noah."

And it isn't my imagination.

I watched them fight, I watched them love, I watched them play.

In real life.

Now I watch her live but I also watch her grieve.

One more day I can say, "Last year I watched him sleep, I felt him breathe on me, I smelled his skin."

And I'm not having to conjure up a memory.

Just one more day I can say the words "last year" and relate it to things I did with him.

What I wouldn't give for just one more day.

Just last year he was here. He was alive. He was real.

Now, as I see it,

It's still just one more day

One more day closer to heaven.

Just one more day closer to Noah.

Some of my favorite pictures. 

Taken just…last…year.

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."  Revelation 21:4


  1. Memories will carry you through, Jessica! You are a strong person....you have handled your situation above and beyond...with God's grace, of course. You are on my mind constantly.

  2. You are sauch an awesome Mother...read all of your posts about your children and all the photos. I think with sreading the word to all the boat owners and marinas that you are getting a message out that should have been known before as a possibility that things could happen if the situation was right.You are a very strong person and if anyone can get the message out there it will be you!

  3. I really don't no u but I do no and friends with Todd didn't no Noah or the pain that you and your family is going threw but as a father spend and precious every second with your children and love them unconditionally for u never no what God has planned never forget the loved ones lost